reflecting
Feeling: gross. almost sick but like. i'm in a permanent state of disgust, it's been like this all day
Seeing: my room, what's new?
Tasting: nothing! i was drinking coffee though
Hearing: System of a Down - Störagéd
Smelling: Esteban Paris - Teck & Tonka
not sure how to feel about everything recently. i haven't been able to go out consistently for the past few years, i feel like evreryone moved on from lockdown and i'm still at square one. i have random spikes of motivation every now and then but that's really all it comes down to
i've recently been yearning a lot. i kind of want to be loved romantically. i'm fully aware that relationships at my age would interfere with my education1 but i've been starting to care less and less now. i just want to feel something
hoping this christmas goes well
i've barely been able to make it to school anyway. not sure how i'll manage in college or even make a living↩